Make Me A Daddy.

We and I mean all women who went through pregnancy -- you have to admit that once in your pregnant life you have become a "drama queen" in your own right.  I excluded non-pregnant ladies, if you have to excuse me, because this has something to do with a condition of overflowing hormones and the mere fact that we are pregnant, not that we are complaining.

Everything hurts, legs hurt, back hurts, the "slow mo" walk, the weight gain and the sleepness nights. The moment he learned about my pregnancy, I know that he will be a good father, he would worry more than I do, he'd ask me if I got me my vitamins, if I ate on time and what I want to eat, just last night I asked him to cook puchero and he did, trembling. 

Being a father requires a lot, you have to be patient, you have to be more careful on the decisions that you make, you have to think about your child before you do something that might hurt them.  You have to work double time, sleepless nights, taking turns in changing nappies, feeding the baby, sending them to school -- blah! blah! blah! 

When I told him I was pregnant, he was the happiest, he was the one who called doctor friends and ask for recommendations in looking for a good OB-GYNE, he would ask me everytime --how it feels inside me, or if it hurts, if it's painful, if there is anything that he needs to do, he gets more excited as he watch my tummy get bigger, he would call the baby "peanut", he even bought me shoes since I can't wear my killer high heels anymore, there's always fruit on the table and he would always kiss the baby goodnight.

These are just small ways of how to be a father, but there's more, just wait. :)

Sleep is Precious.

I never had trouble sleeping, I sleep for 3 hours and I can function like a normal human being, I can stay up late for as long as I want even if I have to go to work and not worry about it, but it is way too different when you are bearing a child, everything should be done sparingly, eating, drinking water, not too much caffeine, less stress, no stress if you are really lucky.

Women when pregnant are more sensitive, more emotional -- and this is what all men should know, it is not us, but our hormones.  The reason why we are extra bitchy is not to annoy you or just  because we want to make it difficult, we don't want it as well, the unusual cravings that we are getting at an unusual hour is not because we want to punish you, but it is what it is, and even us ladies cannot explain why.

Last night, I was trying to hold on to my temper, it is unlikely that I will visit people and chat until 12 am, when everyone is asleep and yet you inconsiderate un-pregnant people are laughing their assess of not even thinking that maybe some people are trying to sleep!  But no! -- all the giggling and the laughing which I can hear from my bedroom window is really getting into my nerves, and to add more damage, because of the inconsiderate laughing, the dogs are barking and creates more noise.  I mean, I don't really mind them visiting, but if they are not there to visit me, then the least they can do is to keep quiet or at least try to minimize the noise, and guess what--- they left at 12am, and I have to get up at 5am and I am pregnant.

The Countdown.

I am now on my 3rd month, officially a mother.  I tell you, being pregnant is not easy, well at least for me, it's not that I am complaining, but it is difficult, especially during night time, the frequent trips to the bathroom, trying to find a spot so I can get a good night sleep.  The weird cravings that I get every now and then, my old clothes doesn't fit me anymore, my shoes, oh my lovely, lovely shoes, I decided to keep them away for the meantime.

Right now I have all these baby fat, baby bump, pooch, kangaroo purse --- but I don't really care, I am one happy pregnant lady, I love the fact that I am growing a life inside me, that I finally quit smoking and that I am more careful of what I do with my body.  Sometimes I feel sad that behind all these life-changing event I am missing one person, that one person who knows everything about bearing a child, that person who knows what to do when something goes wrong, that one person who will be the happiest is no longer around.  Mama knows what to do when I feel weird, I know she will tell me of the things that are bad and good for me, but I know that even if she is not around she is watching over me and my little one, making sure that we are both safe and healthy, I still miss here, I miss her so much, too bad that my little one won't be able to meet her Lola.

But I am excited to see you, "peanut" as what your dad calls you, I can't wait to tell you all the good stuff, how kind-hearted her granny was and how we will face the world together, I know that I will be a good mother, I will raise you, the way I was raised by your Lola, I know you will be smart, beautiful and I am so proud of you. I can't wait to see you. I love you.